Feb 08 2007
When did I know?
I was young. I remember looking up the word “homosexual” from the Encyclopaedia Britannica. I wanted to understand what it is and why it is. The description provided little for me to understand. All I remember is that it gave the history of homosexuality from the Ancient Greeks to the present time. It is a sexual attraction to the same sex.
Of course, I already knew that! I was probably seven years of age when I first knew I was attracted to men. It didn’t have any malice at that time. I just like looking at beautiful men. My brother’s friends were my first crushes.
I came from a very religious family. A family that went to church every Sunday. We would go and eat out afterwards to spend time with my brothers and sisters. My parents were members of Catholic Organizations such as the Christian Family Movement, Cursillo, and my dad was a Grand Knight at the Knights of Columbus. I always remember being surrounded by nuns and priests during their visit at our home. My mom used to take me along with her on Wednesdays to attend the Novena to Our Mother of Perpetual Help. I loved being there. I enjoyed being inside the church, watching the tealight candles burn. I always looked up at the big crucified Christ on the cross with blood running down his forehead, hands and feet nailed to the cross. I liked the church.
To be continued…
The stigma of realizing your feelings were wrong in the eyes of the belief you were expected to adopt, is a catastrophic live killing moment. A moment when you lost your innocence. Welcome. You are not alone.
Thanks Diane! I appreciate the comments.. it’s nice to know I have people around me that do care..
That pic is hot. Is that you?
Ha! I wish Diane!! It is a picture taken from a rare publication by Bruce Weber entitled, “The Chop Suey Clubâ€. The model is Peter Johnson.
LOL oh well, you’ve got good taste. Hot pic. New blog I see. I appreciate your honesty so far. Please don’t lose that. I am seeking honesty, as I’m sure you are too.
LOL – Yes, This is my first post which is still incomplete – and you are my very first visitor! It was a very warm welcome and I thank you! I promise to keep this blog going and I want you to keep yours too!
You moved!
Hi Diane! Yes, I did.. good thing you found me! I decided to make it legitimate and assigned a domain to the blog so people can find it easily. Welcome back!