Aug 15 2007
Child abuse – - who’s watching?
I may not have have been able to tell you about my story before. I am a victim of child sexual abuse. I had an adopted brother who sexually abused me as a child. I was only seven. The abuse went on for about five years. I couldn’t tell anyone about it because I felt like it was my fault. I tried so hard to hide it and it caused me pain in the long run. I carried that burden for 18 years until I met a Catholic Irish monk that walked me through the pain and carried me over to recovery.
You see, I was lucky. I only walked with the pain for 18 years before I found help, accidentally. Without that monk, I will still be carrying that bitterness inside me today.
Children needs protection. Child abuse is such taboo that it is talked about too little. We have to put the word out in the open so everyone is aware of its dangers. I was abused inside the home without anyone knowing that it was happening. The person that did this to me is someone that my parents brought home from an orphanage to help him live a normal life, yet what he did to me is unthinkable. No one would have ever thought that someone you helped with open arms will do this to your child. But it happened. Parents, please be conscious of whom you leave your children with. Children are abused every day inside their own homes. Unless this cycle is broken, we will have children growing up with broken emotions, unable to love, unable to function. Some hide it well but the damage is there. So please, I beg all of you to be cognizant of your children’s surroundings. A person you trust, could be a person you shouldn’t trust. Always keep your eyes and ears open…
We’re on the same boat. But unlike you I haven’t come to terms with what happened. I still dream about it sometimes. I’ve told some friends about it, some were very consoling but some, just shrugged their shoulders off, as if it were no big deal. Anyways.
It happened when I was also of the same age, the perv being my cousin. Sometimes I cant help but ask if had it not happen would I still be the same? I mean, being gay is hard enough, and being a victim only contributes to the heavy burden.
hello same boat. I can sympathize with you. With prayer and counseling, you should be able to overcome the grips of this horrible past. Thanks for sharing. People must know that child abuse can be as close as your backyard and they need to know that it can happen to anyone.
please know that you are in my prayers and do come and share here regularly, even just to let things out and talk to someone. welcome to my blog.