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Have you guys played paintball? Have you ever thought about it? I don’t care if you’re a man or a woman or even in between, the game of paintball is as jumping off an airplane. Well, maybe not that exciting but if you ever feel the adrenaline rush while playing, it could be an experience of a lifetime.

While living in Baltimore, I got to play paintball with my co-workers. We organized a weekend trip for anyone who’s interested. Men and women signed up to my surprise. I had no idea what I was getting into until we got to the site. They pair your team with another team who’s playing on the same day. Guess who we got? A team of military men in fatigues and combat armor. What? I thought we were playing for fun!

These people must have gotten discount paintball guns off the internet or some sort because they had their own paintball guns with them. The only support and protection we were wearing were the goggles and a breast support. When we got on the field, I thought I already died. These guys were ruthless. They got the members of my team one by one in a matter of minutes. I got hit in the head right above my right eye. Sheesh. I was running and shooting like mad yet I didn’t get any one. Not one. It was so exciting that I almost peed my pants. It’s like being in the front line.

The one that could have saved us was a girl. She stayed behind her cover the whole time. But when we were all done, she was the only one left and we were watching these guys surround her. It was actually hilarious when she went berzerk and started screaming at the same time shooting at every direction knowing she was going to get hit anytime anyway. We had a blast! I’m just sorry that we never did it again. I would do it again if I get a chance. And this time, we will show up in full gear just to intimidate the other teams. At least we’ll be ahead even before we start! If you haven’t tried it - I suggest you do. You will not regret it.

It’s been over for almost six months now.  I don’t know if I’m feeling lonely or feeling guilty but the reason for my breakup with my boyfriend was something minimal.  It’s not like I cheated or he cheated.  There’s not even a third party.  I just feel that I didn’t give enough to the relationship that pushed my ex-boyfriend away.

I look back and I wondered - was I fair?  Did I put my friends over and above him?  Maybe I did.  Ever since we got together, I laid down the rules.  My friends supported my for almost six years while I was without a relationship.  They were there when I needed something.  Be it a ride to the airport or just companionship when I felt lonely.   They made me laugh and they made me cry.  But all the same, they became family to me.

The main argument that we always had was about my friends.  I was hanging out a little too much with them and whenever he’s here at my house, friends will drop by not giving us enough time with each other.  But I enjoyed the company of my friends.  It doesn’t necessarily mean I didn’t enjoy his company.    Over all, I may have missed the mark.  Maybe I should have told my friends to back off for a while…or I should have done it myself.

Needless to say, the milk is sour and I can’t do anything about it now.  Would I do the same with my next relationship?  I hope not.  That is if ever I go into another relationship.

I was out with my friends last night.  Went out to a lounge, had a couple of social drinks and then I headed back home.  On my way home, I somehow became emotional.  Not sure why.  All of a sudden, I thought about my mom.

You see, my mom passed away 12 years ago. ( Gosh, it’s been that long already? )  I never really had the chance to grieve.  I was in utter shock and to this day, I think I still have unrequited emotions.   I miss you mom!  I hope someday, I will be able to cry this out and let is all pour out.

Christians like the rest of the world have financial responsibilities as well. We pay the bills, we have children to raise or people to help. We go through financial crisis as well and sometimes when the paycheck isn’t enough, we need a bit of help.

If you do need assistance, wouldn’t you want to go through a Christian bank if you could? There are companies out there specifically targeted for Christians to help them in their financial needs. One such program that they offer are payday loans that allow you to borrow the money until you have sufficient funds to pay it back. That is why it is called payday loans, it is a way to bridge the gap between paychecks to help you get through financial obligations.

Christian Faith Financial is a loan matching service helping consumers find the right loan for their needs. Check them out and may you have a blessed experience.

Every year I do this and I am mostly successful.  The problem is I normally don’t allow enough time for me to get ready to be in time for mass.  I love going to mass and I normally use it as my quiet time to reflect about my life.   Sure, an hour may be a bit short but it is still time away from all the busy disturbances of life.

Tomorrow is Sunday again and I must go to bed early today so I can get up for mass.  I am planning to go to the morning mass.  The choir in the morning adds to my experience.  How about you?  Is going to church one of your resolutions this year?