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I went to church today after missing approximately seven weeks. It felt good. I am so glad that I made the effort to go as I was tempted to miss mass again for the 8th week. It was refreshing to say the least.

As usual, while in church my mind wandered. I always try to bring my thoughts back to the homily whenever I notice that my mind is wandering somewhere. When I was finally able to focus, I asked forgiveness for my weaknesses, selfishness and most of all – my pride. There are so many people whom I have wronged. Some unintentionally, and some – uhmmmmm probably intentional. It’s human nature to be upset, to boast, to be greedy. It doesn’t mean it’s right.

I remember a time when I yearned to pray. I would lock my doors and prostrate myself inside my room and think nothing but my communication with God. That was a while ago. The fire burning inside me is no longer there. I keep reminding myself that the fire may no longer be there, but the pilot lamp is still lit. It never ever goes out.

I have praises to sing, prayers to say, and love to give. I need to forget about me. I need to share my life with others. I have been so blessed to find that the God I know loves me unconditionally. There are no ifs, ands, or buts. He simply loves me for who I am.

I prayed for my manager at work who was let go last Thursday. There weren’t any reason (valid ones) why they would have let him go. He is such a great person, and a great manager at that. Brian – don’t worry – God is watching you.

I hope everyone had a nice weekend and I hope that everyone was able to share joy and laughter to the people around you.

God bless and have a great week!

I received quite a bible-thumping, point-to-the-bible-verse-about-homosexuality email from someone and asked me to stop this blog. He says that I am being deceived by the devil and that no one should live this lifestyle. He also tells me that God loves me but if I continue with this lifestyle, I will be forever condemned to hell.

If he met me a few years ago, before I realize how God’s love knows no bounds – I would have believed him. I would have deleted this blog and lived in guilt and shame. I probably would have gone to confession multiple times and washed myself with holy water.

But that is not me today. Today, I am a grown man with the knowledge of what God’s love is. I am a grown man, who knows that God will not open the gates of heaven for me for anything else but one reason – how I loved my brothers. That is the only thing that I believe in and no matter what happens, I will cling to that. I could memorize all the verses of the bible, I could sing wondrous praises and even preach with my own tongue – - but without the LOVE God has intended for me to share with others – - all of those mean nothing.

So, I therefore pray that you will realize why this blog exists and why I intend to share what I know about God. There is only one God I know and the God I know has made a way for me to realize that he will only measure one thing about me, and one thing only. “How much did I love my fellowmen?”

God bless.

My nephew has a dream. He would like someday to become a Police Officer. I told him, with the right attitude and conduct – it shouldn’t be impossible for him. He already knows how to handle guns from his dad. They both have licensed guns that they use for target shooting. They usually go target shooting at least once a month. It’s a good bonding thing I suppose. I wished I had that kind of time with my dad.

So, on his upcoming birthday, I was thinking of getting him a Blackhawk Holster. It’s probably going to look cool on him and he will probably brag about it too. The price is reasonable as well so maybe he’ll find a pleasure on a good deal that I’m getting. We’ll see.

You know what? In our lifestyle, there are many things that we go through before we reach the calmness and acceptance that most of us find, if not all – sometimes earlier than usual for a few of us and sometimes a little later. But there are a few folks that couldn’t easily deal with accepting the beauty in who they are. Or maybe, it is the outside force – like their parents or fear of losing their status within the community – that they continue to hide from the truth. Some of them even rely on drugs to keep them from facing reality. And that hurts most of us deeply.

I saw a lot of them at the clubs in New York. It may have been the things that was said to them while growing up, or the negative tones about homosexuality that they hear from almost everyone. It isn’t too late. You can still get back on track. Life has full of wonderful things to offer and there are many folks out there now that accept us for who we are. There is a Drug Treatment Center in almost every town, every state. You can always get help and we encourage you to do so. Do not be discouraged. You are loved for who you are.

Peace.

You know what I always find hot? Military guys wearing BDUs. Yes – it’s similar to the military uniform that we see them wearing on TV these days. It’s just very manly and kind of tough looking. Being who I am, I pretty much learned the skill of not being flamboyant. And I’m attracted to men that are men as well.

My neighbor was in the military but he works for CSI now. He’s quite a hot dude and he used to show me all his military pictures when he was younger. I have always complimented him on that. If you’re seeking to look hot , try BDUs. They’re awesome!

Is anyone still reading my posts?  I just want to put out a survey out there so I know if I should keep up with this blog yet or not.  I do want to keep it but I’ve been busy lately.  So I do hope I have readers who are loyal and looking to share this journey with me.

Cheers!

I have always loved target shooting with my brother and my nephew. No, I don’t own a firearm or anything. But my brother and my nephew does. It takes guts I think, at least for me. We were looking at guns the last time we went target shooting and they were recommending a few types for me including a safariland holster to go with it. I would probably by it when I’m ready. Right now, I can’t imagine myself owning a firearm even simply for fun. Maybe someday.

I am having a difficult time changing my blog template. It takes a lot of effort to look for the proper templates and the proper design that would fit the subject matter that I blog about. I manage about six different blogs and each time I change a template, I get confused regarding where and what to put what item. Sometimes, I let go of the change easily just because I don’t know much about blog design.

then I found that there is a site called Stylish Design where a web designer is blogging about how to manage your Google adsense, how to layout your blog, how to add Google gadgets to your webpages. It’s really very invaluable information. Some of the things they write I did know but most of the items they write about design and blogging simply makes me crave for more. Tips and Tricks, planning and concepts and how to manage your content. It is really fun to read and nothing short of creative.

If you are a newbie to the blogging world, you may benefit reading StylishDesign.com. The blogosphere changes are never-ending and if you want to keep up with the changes, you should visit this site. They should be able to lead you by the hand and help you create a successful blog with excellent content and design.