Apr 15 2008
Understanding where I am coming from.
I received quite a bible-thumping, point-to-the-bible-verse-about-homosexuality email from someone and asked me to stop this blog. He says that I am being deceived by the devil and that no one should live this lifestyle. He also tells me that God loves me but if I continue with this lifestyle, I will be forever condemned to hell.
If he met me a few years ago, before I realize how God’s love knows no bounds – I would have believed him. I would have deleted this blog and lived in guilt and shame. I probably would have gone to confession multiple times and washed myself with holy water.
But that is not me today. Today, I am a grown man with the knowledge of what God’s love is. I am a grown man, who knows that God will not open the gates of heaven for me for anything else but one reason – how I loved my brothers. That is the only thing that I believe in and no matter what happens, I will cling to that. I could memorize all the verses of the bible, I could sing wondrous praises and even preach with my own tongue – - but without the LOVE God has intended for me to share with others – - all of those mean nothing.
So, I therefore pray that you will realize why this blog exists and why I intend to share what I know about God. There is only one God I know and the God I know has made a way for me to realize that he will only measure one thing about me, and one thing only. “How much did I love my fellowmen?”
God bless.
our minds may justify that we can be both – gay and at the same time bible-believing christians. why not? this will all settle the tension and struggle we have with our faith and our sexuality. Honestly, how much I try to buy on these thoughts, there’s in me that says I can’t be both. Deep in my heart of hearts, I know that this can’t be God’s plan for my freedom. Like everyone else who reads this blog, I’m one of those who stil searches. I pray that God may find us as we seek Him.
Hello Albert and welcome to my blog. I had the same struggle. I had the same concerns. Believe me, I didn’t come to this conclusion. I used to hate myself for being me. I used to hate God for letting me be who I am. Why would such a loving God let his children suffer? Why me?!
I had struggled and I fought it. Believe me. That is until God showed me His love goes beyond my thinking. I cannot look at the way God loves me in the same way any human being sees it. God’s thinking is higher than our own. I am just glad that He made me realize it before I became self-destructive, before I hated myself even more, and before I hurt anyone else.
Homosexuality is not a disease Albert. God loves you whether you are straight or gay. You are beautiful in His eyes. Just remember that.
Hi Albert. You are not alone in concerns about being gay as I struggled with this almost my entire life. I pleaded, begged and prayed for God to take this from me and make me normal but He never did. Finally after another failure on my part of broken promises to God and myself I finally admitted who I really am and what I had known for so long and tried to deny. A most wonderful thing happened that was totally unexpected. I received peace, a peace about myself and most importantly from God. I finally understood after all those years I didn’t choose to be gay nor was I in rebellion to God as I had been taught. I was gay because that is the way He made me.
I pray that you and all those who are struggling with this issue that you find the same peace that I have today. I would strongly urge you and anyone else to get into a gay christian church and to thoroughly study the passages that seem to condemn homosexuals. I can assure you they do not condemn loving and committed relationships only certain acts in the worship of idols. There are many gay christian sites out there.
Please check out a few, http://www.InclusiveOrthodoxy.net,
http://www.spiritualfruits.com
My prayers are with you.