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I went to church today after missing approximately seven weeks. It felt good. I am so glad that I made the effort to go as I was tempted to miss mass again for the 8th week. It was refreshing to say the least.

As usual, while in church my mind wandered. I always try to bring my thoughts back to the homily whenever I notice that my mind is wandering somewhere. When I was finally able to focus, I asked forgiveness for my weaknesses, selfishness and most of all - my pride. There are so many people whom I have wronged. Some unintentionally, and some - uhmmmmm probably intentional. It’s human nature to be upset, to boast, to be greedy. It doesn’t mean it’s right.

I remember a time when I yearned to pray. I would lock my doors and prostrate myself inside my room and think nothing but my communication with God. That was a while ago. The fire burning inside me is no longer there. I keep reminding myself that the fire may no longer be there, but the pilot lamp is still lit. It never ever goes out.

I have praises to sing, prayers to say, and love to give. I need to forget about me. I need to share my life with others. I have been so blessed to find that the God I know loves me unconditionally. There are no ifs, ands, or buts. He simply loves me for who I am.

I prayed for my manager at work who was let go last Thursday. There weren’t any reason (valid ones) why they would have let him go. He is such a great person, and a great manager at that. Brian - don’t worry - God is watching you.

I hope everyone had a nice weekend and I hope that everyone was able to share joy and laughter to the people around you.

God bless and have a great week!