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I had a wonderful time over the holidays as I spent my Christmas with family in New York City. There were the festive meals and gift exchanges. My Christmas was too close to turning sour because I ended up sitting alone in my sister’s house while the rest of the family were over at my cousin’s house. Midnight struck and there I was, sipping a glass of wine by myself. I thought, “I could have stayed at home and done this by myself! I didn’t need to drive three hours, bring all kinds of goodies, a case of wine and expect to sit all by myself as I welcomed Christmas.” That’s what happened.

As I thought deeply about Christmas, I would say that we really have forgotten its meaning. The meaning of sharing, giving and family have been lost. Many families still keep this tradition. I just think my family had lost its way. Since my parents passed, reunions became more scarce and family gatherings became a thing of the past. I saw one blogger’s post on how they celebrated Christmas and I was terribly envious of them. The gifts that they raffled off weren’t even gifts that would make anyone rich but it was the spirit of Christmas that made their Christmas more joyous than the families (i.e. mine) who exchanged lavish gifts but lacked the spirit. Thinking further, Christmas really wasn’t about gifts. It’s about cheer! Make someone happy. Make everyone happy.

I knelt and prayed on Christmas Day and wondered if we will ever get that spirit back. I looked around and mulled over why we lost it. Have we all become insensitive? Do we really care enough for each other? As a family, is it enough just to have everyone gathered around the dinner table to enjoy each other’s company? I haven’t lost all hope yet. It has dimmed the pilot light I keep – just a little. I just hope this light will never go out.

I was glad to hear that a buddy of mine from Las Vegas was accepted into the Police Academy and has been training for a while now. He sent me a picture recently of his squad in training and it looks like they have it tough. I wonder what they make them do during training. Being in Las Vegas, I know that it could still be pretty warm but now that the cold chill has arrived here in the east, I wonder if it has gotten cold in the deserts these days.

His squad is so cute that I want to send them all 5.11 Jackets. It just seems appropriate now that the weather is getting chilly and they may have to stay in bunkers or whatever police training entails outdoors.. and I don’t want them getting cold. It is actually pretty cool if you think about it.. a friend of mine – becoming a cop! Hmmm. That’s quite sexy.

I have been away for a while.  I haven’t blogged nearly as much as I would like to share my spiritual journey with all of you.  To that, my sincere apologies.

It is the Advent season and my journey begins as I make my feeble attempts to understand God’s plan for me.   Please pray for me constantly that I may not stray.. that I may steadfastly thread the rough roads with nothing but praises to the Most High.