Jun 03 2009
What I miss…
Coming back from a trip to the Philippines, I was re-awaken to the fact that I’ve lost a lot of spirituality since coming over to the United States. I could view it as something positive or negative but it depends on the way I look at it.
I was a very religious person when I lived there. I go to mass every Sunday, pray the rosary when I can and I even attend Novena masses on Wednesdays. There is a sense of peace and calm whenever I go to church. I could sit there and watch the burning votives while I meditate on my life and what I’ve done. I miss those moments. Somehow, I don’t feel that here. Could it be that my life has changed dramatically or is it that my views have changed.
While on vacation, I met a guy who still has the traits (spirituality) I used to have. I don’t know if I miss being that way or simply sad because I lost that kind of belief, that sense of spirituality. The people there clings to religion and faith. Not sure if it’s because that is something they can hold on to without cost, or is it because they truly believe in it.
On the other hand, I admire their faith. I wish I could regain it… or will I ever?
