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This is one of the reasons why I don’t try to get involved with people via online.  There is a difference between meeting someone in person and knowing all the expectations already rather than speaking with someone online.

I just met someone by chance - not looking for anything.  We had great conversations and all that but he has since disappeared.  I wonder why?  It could be the time zone difference but I used to receive off line messages on my instant messenger but not anymore.  I guess “that’s how the story ended.”

I was out with my friends last night.  Went out to a lounge, had a couple of social drinks and then I headed back home.  On my way home, I somehow became emotional.  Not sure why.  All of a sudden, I thought about my mom.

You see, my mom passed away 12 years ago. ( Gosh, it’s been that long already? )  I never really had the chance to grieve.  I was in utter shock and to this day, I think I still have unrequited emotions.   I miss you mom!  I hope someday, I will be able to cry this out and let is all pour out.

This is the time of year when most of us who are single just want to just skip by.  Why?  We get lonely and we make the wish that we find that perfect someone (or not-so-perfect someone) just so that we can have someone to exchange gifts with, share the fireplace with or simply cuddle with.

But life is too short to feel that way.  Don’t get me wrong.  I understand the feeling of seeing couples do the ‘normal’ things that couples do during the holidays.  Putting up a Christmas tree together, ceremonial lighting of the tree blah blah blah..  but we can live without that too!  Love is all around specially during the holidays.  Spread it around.

One thing I did one holiday season is to volunteer at a local church for homeless people.  It was a humbling experience and it was fun.  I stayed one night at the shelter and the guy that they partnered with me loves Western movies.  So we watched all the episodes of Lonesome Dove.  It was not my cup of tea but I still enjoyed the conversation.  That was it.

The next day, I saw the homeless guys get ready for work.  Yes, some of them do work and some even have cars. They just don’t have a place to live.  But they are great people too.

If you are feeling lonely this Christmas - try it it.  You will feel fulfilled like you can never imagine.